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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 18.06.2025 05:57

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I waited trembling.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Since the rise of feminism, the dating market has shifted to the disadvantage of men and that is causing this incel phenomenon. Why do women not understand how lonely the majority of men are?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

If a guy is attracting a bunch of what he believes to be "ugly" women, is he crushing the dating game?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

What are some photos of female sexual organs?

All the time i was locked up.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

What is the worst emotional pain you ever felt as an adult?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Im still living with it.

Can I use ChatGPT to get chapter ideas? I’ll be writing it with my own words but I just get writer’s block when it comes to what to write?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

In your humble opinion, why does the narcissist mistake kindness for weakness in some people?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Which is the first MV you watched in Stray Kids?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I was 9 years of age.

We all went to grammer schools

What is one thing you've learned from life?

I don,t even have a pension.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

What does "feeling like your life is over" mean and why is it not in any dictionary online?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Why is squid ink safe to eat, while skunk spray is not? What makes the two liquids different from each other?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She was in good health!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And i lived it daily.

This is soul school!.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

One cannot live in the past .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Who then, do I blame.?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She found it foreign!.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

So whats the point in blame.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I think the readers, may guess!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

As i do to all so called friends.?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Would this be the day?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Was to survive, this bastard.

What did i know ?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My family never makes their pension either.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I write beautiful poetry .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I will be 64.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

We were not on the streets..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I was scared of men, in general

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

My life is so biszare .

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I was seconnd youngest,

She married twice! .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

He knew the spot.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

So, i spoilt her more .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I never cut or harmed myself..

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But ive been too sick for many years..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

And who doesn’t know suffering?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She wouldn,t have been !

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Comes on , in middle age.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I have no regrets .

But, we were locked up after school.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was very sick at this time too.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Why did i forgive my father ?

I could never make a relationship work though!

Ive learnt so much.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

The only rule us 5 kids had .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I said to her

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I couldn’t, believe it.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

When she asked me how she looked .

It was going to be , some day.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But it wasn’t much.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Put me off passion for life!!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She loved him until the end.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I did it because my mum asked me too!