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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 02:10

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Has your mother ever walked in on you at an inappropriate time?

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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When she asked me how she looked .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Why are white women so overly emotional?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Have you ever heard of the god Priapus being the same as the god Phosphorus?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Why do women stubbornly refuse to let men lead, even though they are attracted to the man, and the man both loves and desires them? Why do they get angry and blame the man when he gets fed up and walks away, when it's entirely their own fault?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Especially a lifetime of it.

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I think the readers, may guess!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Why do flat Earthers run away like whipped dogs with their tails between their legs when asked simple questions that expose their delusions as fantasy?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Why do men cheat on their wives with someone extremely unattractive?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Why do narcissists keep calling on the phone after years of separation?

So whats the point in blame.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He knew the spot.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Put me off passion for life!!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I could never make a relationship work though!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Im dying but, im not bitter.

What did i know ?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I couldn’t, believe it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

So, i spoilt her more .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Would this be the day?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I was 9 years of age.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She loved him until the end.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

It was going to be , some day.

Who then, do I blame.?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

One cannot live in the past .

Comes on , in middle age.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im still living with it.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

We were not on the streets..

My family never makes their pension either.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She found it foreign!.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

All the time i was locked up.

As i do to all so called friends.?

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

(And it was in our own minds.)

I write beautiful poetry .

I waited trembling.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I don,t even have a pension.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I said to her

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She married twice! .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I will be 64.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My life is so biszare .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I never cut or harmed myself..

She wouldn,t have been !

But, we were locked up after school.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He resisted the act ,that day.

And i lived it daily.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

We all went to grammer schools

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I had hoped to write a book about this .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I have no regrets .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

This is soul school!.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Ive learnt so much.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I was seconnd youngest,

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was very sick at this time too.

I was scared of men, in general

Was to survive, this bastard.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But it wasn’t much.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She was in good health!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Why did i forgive my father ?